Devastated by the death of my mother
On April 23, 2010 my world changed forever. The woman who made me the woman I am today was gone. What am I going to do now? How am I going to continue? Who am I going to tell my thoughts and dreams to? Who will be there to love me unconditionally? All these thoughts crossed my mind and many more. I didn’t know where to start. My life as I knew it was forever changed. He’d pick up the phone to call her and tell her about something great that happened and then remember she wasn’t there.
My children were left with a void. She was the most amazing grandmother and she was always there for her grandchildren. My children loved spending weekends at her house because she was a very active grandmother.
I don’t know where I got the strength, maybe my mother gave it to me, but I stood up at her funeral and spoke about her and the impact she had on my life. She this was the woman who raised me, she took care of me when I was sick and I always knew how much she loved me.
The good news is that life goes on. People don’t stop living because someone they love dies. I had my whole life ahead of me and my mother would want me to go on and live the best life possible. I have so much love inside of me to give and I can’t stop living now. My children, my sister and my father still need me. I will always have all the great memories and all the good values my mom taught me. She taught me to be a good person and always be there for your family, they should always be your first priority. She taught me how to love life and laugh and how to live a happy life. I will always carry a little piece of my mom in my heart. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of her and her smile. She brought happiness to this world and this world will never be the same without her.
The good news is that I’m moving on and living the best life possible. I wake up every day with a smile on my face and a positive attitude. I have two options in my life: Give up and retire from life or continue and make the best of the life that has been given to me. Every day on this earth is a blessing and should not be taken for granted. Life is fragile and can be taken away in an instant and you should try to live your life with no regrets.
My mother would be so proud of the path I have chosen. She feels her around me all the time and I know that she is taking care of my dad, my sister, my children and me and she makes sure that we are all well.
The good news is that a relationship does not end when someone dies. You can still talk to them and ask for advice. The relationship just changes. I will never stop talking to my mom. I know that she is listening to me and taking care of me. I have bad days, we all have them. I allow myself to cry and miss her and then I think about the good times and all the love she brought into my life and everyone around her and that brings me peace.